Sometimes I have these moments of clarity. These are times where I am fully conscious of the beauty surrounding me, conscious of how lucky I am to have the things I have, and most importantly, the beautiful people that I have in my life.
During these moments I am at peace. Often times music will help me gravitate toward this state. It is refreshing. I feel grateful for the people I have in my life, so, in no particular order...
D - My old friend, I am so happy for you. I feel that words are not adequate to express my happiness in this moment, but perhaps they are not needed. The beauty of communication between two man is in its simplicity. Often times a nod and eye contact will speak volumes. so perhaps we're ok here. I think that we understand each other perfectly. So yes, be happy.
M - I loved being with you, even though I felt you weren't always at ease with me. I think I walked on egg shells around you a bit, especially in the beginning, because I felt like you were uneasy. I never got to show you my favorite picture of you. Perhaps I will. It was the one where you looked happy walking. It wasn't so much the fact that you were smiling, but that I felt the picture captured a glimpse of your true essence. You looked free, unbound of the daily drudgery, and truly in the moment. Your smile said everything. I've seen in on occasions and it makes you the most beautiful person in the world. You really should wear that smile more. I wish you the best :)
B - You are an awesome sister-in-law. I love that you make David happy and gosh it was so difficult from the get-go for you. I applaud your persistence and I think you guys are lucky to have each other, and I'm glad it all worked out for THE best. And even though I feel like that sometimes you still cannot be yourself with me, I think that's ok. It'll come with time. I hope work is going ok and not too stressful. Take care and be good to yourself! :)
G - I think you've come a long way since the first time I met you. Yes, you're still a little misunderstood by some, but I think it's not a big deal. I do wish you have read some of the stuff I've regarding personal development. I should tell you this in person but I'll say it now: Don't be afraid to take up more space in this world. Look at people in the eye when you talk to them. You are awesome and other people should know it too.
L - I'm glad we reconnected. You are part of the reason for this post. I think there are certain things that don't need to be said between two people, and certain things that are better left unsaid. So without doing either of those two, let's just say that I'm happy that we can be friends again. Yes, it took me a long time. I'm pretty sure that is the the most understated way to put that. I believe in the feminine energy's ability to sharpen and revitalize the masculine counterpoint, and I think you are the perfect example in my life. I'm glad that you're happy. Happy is good. Stay happy. Fight for your happiness.
On another topic, I made a fear list today. Yes, a list of the things I fear. Not just things I have to do, but things that tenses me up when I think about them. I found it to be an extremely relaxing exercise. For some reason, after I spelled out all my fears on paper, I found that they seemed more manageable to me. It was probably because it was hard to keep track of them floating inside my head, but now that I have them in front of me, I can tackle each one specifically and keep track of my progress. It's a very little thing that's been pretty substantial for me and I'd recommend everyone to try it. Attack your fear list!
Alright my people, be good to yourself. Time for me to hit the hay. Until next time, be safe, be strong, be sexy!
